As I sit here at 25years old I am starting to see my life as a connecting the dots puzzle. And I find myself thanking God that HE is the one connecting the dots in my life...not me. I am starting to see key events in my life and how the decisions I made in those situations has made me the person I am today. There are moments where if I had made one different decision I probably wouldn't have gone back to school. If I hadn't done something else that God had asked me to do I probably wouldn't have my best friend right now. I think when I journal tomorrow I am going to write down those situations and the decisions God guided me to so that He could mold me into the person I am today. I can already tell you it is going to be a LONG list.
I once heard life explained as a cross-stitch. If you look at the wrong side of a design it will not make a whole lot of sense. It will be a jumble of knots and loose ends. If you just see that side you would have no idea that those knots and loose ends work together to create something beautiful. When we are living our lives we only see that side of the design. God is stitching together the events of our life. He can look at the back of the canvas of our life and say that it is beautiful and He loves it. Which is sometimes hard for us to see. I find so much comfort in that while Christ can see my knots and my loose ends He can also turn it over and see the beautiful design He is turning those knots and loose ends into. Sometimes, like recently for me, He reveals a corner of that work of art to me and I can just sit back and say "Wow, I had NO IDEA. That time was so very, very hard for me...but look how You are using it Lord!"
I am not sure if I will ever get to the point where I can look at my unfinished dot-to-dot or knots and loose ends and see them as beautiful. But you know? I know and serve and love a God who does. Just knowing He does and will never stop, no matter how tangled my strings get...that keeps me going. I so desperately want to see what my picture looks like someday! The Lord is so patient with me. His love is everything to me. I would not be anywhere close to where I am today if I had not been committed to getting to the point where that statement is true in my life. As a human, I don't really see myself ever getting to that being 100% true...but I can tell you that it is more true today than it was yesterday...and if it is even more true tomorrow I will be going in the right direction.
I wrote this post hoping I could be an encouragement to you, dear readers!! Some days the puzzle will look like absolutely nothing when you have worked so hard to get all your dots in order. Sometimes we will all be sitting there with a tangled mess of thread in our hands wondering what the heck to do with it. I just want to remind you all what I have been reminded of tonight. God loves us all. He is the one connecting our dots. He sees the other side of the cross stitch. He sees us as beautiful and as His children if we have accepted Him into our lives.
He loves us where we are.
But He loves us too much to leave us here.